I like this number. A lot.
Things have been better with me. And I mean that in both connotations. 🙂 I’m discovering that sugar – and my addiction to it – causes me to feel depressed. My experiments with cutting it out completely reveal that it is making me feel awful. When I have none I feel great – more energy and more importantly, more hope. More sunshine. So it’s back on my plan for eating/feeling well this week, and I also set my intention to prep for at least one mid-day workout this week and one morning of yoga. I am craving health!
Another experiment I’ve been doing is no coffee. I have had a sneaking suspicion that my adrenals are fatigued so it’s been (mostly) no caffeine as well, along with some adrenal support supplements. When I tried a cup after a week of cutting it out it was like rocket fuel! And headaches returned. Anyway as I said I’m just experimenting with how various things in my diet are affecting me.
At work I’m busier than ever in January…I still need to write the annual reviews for my staff and hold meetings. But at least I was able to clear my calendar and finish a big writing project that’s been a monkey on my back for a year. It feels great to have that GONE.
Socially I find I’m having the same troubles….lack of trust, feeling awkward and even awful in my own skin, especially in an all-French room. I found myself really missing the U.S. yesterday. Deeply. Still feeling isolated, with heavy thoughts of shame and judgement. (That sounded like a weather report and made me laugh.)
We saw a therapist (!) last week and T and I will go back for a couple’s session on Thursday. As is well documented, we need it. I’m still on the fence about medication. The antisocial feelings yesterday made me think I really need them, but I’ve also been wondering if I should make a better attempt at diet and exercise too. Or first. Or too. Eeeehhh. I’ll see what the psych says Thursday. And I finally have some GABA arriving soon in the post.
Today I have another opportunity to be social and more open as we’ve invited a single mom to join us @ the aquarium in Monaco. Another all French day. I’ll make it. 🙂
I have a lot more to write but need to get my day started.
Sending love and encouragement to you…. ❤